Just as Sane as I Am

Saturday night. Driving home. Jon and Lily in the back seat. Coming around the traffic circle two minutes from our house. Blinker on to get off at our exit. "Watch out!" from the backseat. Bam! They hit us. I hadn't even seen the car come up on my left side. They hit near the wheel well of the passenger's side at the front of the car. I was exiting the circle, they were entering; at least neither of us was going particularly fast. I'm 34, and I'd never been in a car accident before. I started shaking and blinking and just saying, "Oh my god. Oh my god," over and over again. I knew I had to pull over. Started driving slowly - well, I couldn't drive anything but slowly. The front of my car was apparently hanging off and dragging along the road, scratching against the gravel in protest. Thank god  Lily didn't flinch. Thank god  our cars were moving slowly. Thank god  no one was really injured. I guess my left hand flew off the steeri...

I'm about a month in to being back at work, and so far it's... well. It's not my favorite thing. My first day back, I have to be honest, I was surprised at how well I handled it. I didn't even cry. I got a little choked up when I left the house, but that was it. No tears. Did that make me heartless? Of course I worried about not worrying. My mom sent us pictures of Lily throughout the day, and I live (still) for those texts. When I got home that first day, Mom told me Lily had had a tough time, which I probably could have done without hearing. She apparently cried more than usual and didn't eat that much - maybe 4 oz the entire time I was out. Something else to worry about. Would she resist eating if she got upset everyday? How would that affect her healthy weight gain? Work itself has been pretty decent. On the walk down to my classroom on day 1, it felt like I had never left. That was part of why it was so easy. There was some minor resistance from the stu...